The feeling of being in love confuses most people a lot. People say love is like a drug, it makes us high and gives us an indescribable feeling. We completely feel like we’re out of our minds when we’re in love with someone. It gives us compassion, we would always be willing to go out of our way just to make our partners happy. But what we should really understand about love is that it’s more than just a feeling, more than just rainbows and butterflies in our stomach; it’s a commitment, a devotion, a promise. True love knows no boundaries, no limitations, no end.

 

     But our story has come to an end…

Was it really love?

 

     To the guy whom i thought was the one,

 

     For the first time in my life, I finally felt the feeling of reaching my dreams—it felt like reaching the end of the rainbow, no more, no less.  It melted every part of my heart that had felt as if it’s forever frozen and completely solid. You showed me parts of the city I had never seen before, made me experience things I had never experienced, and made me try things I never thought I would enjoy. I guess that’s really what it’s like when you’re in love, you share this mutual feeling of understanding and appreciation with each other. Everything was so perfect. We would hold each other’s hands, listen to LANY songs, exhange sweet words as you drive going to McDonalds. You were not just a dream that i fantasize at night about, you were also my reality that I used to look forward to everyday. You made me feel like i was the center of your universe—where your world revolves.

You let your whole world revolve around me.

I consumed almost all of your time.

You forgot the other people who cared about you.

You forgot yourself.

     Your words that used to be sweet turned into bitter lies. Your soft hands turned as rough as a rock. We stopped listening to LANY and our smiles turned into tears.

 

In just one moment, I lost you.

*rings* (phone call)...

 

“Hey”

“Hello, what’s up? How are you?” I asked you.

“I’m… I don’t even understand what i feel.” You said.

“Is there anything i can do?”

“I love you so much Athena”

“I love you too, Kenji”

“but I can’t do this anymore.”

“What?”

“I already invested so much time for you.  I think it’s best for us to end this.”

“Can i--”

*phone call ends*

 

And just like that, i have lost the most important person in my life. I’ve lost you—my other half, my dream, my reality, the person whom i want to share the future with. You left without saying goodbye, so here I am thanking you for everything.

 

Goodbye.